i hate them
and i hate this time of year. valentinesfuck me in theass
oh and once again im the only one of my close friends that is single.
and it really isnt that fun people
i dont know why boys are so important to me. they really arent. i guesss its the fact that ive never had one of my own who ACTUALLY wanted me and meant what they said.
(except for one, but i was not happy with him, i was jsut in it to make him happy ergo, making myself miserable.)
but then again you cant love other people when you dont love yourself, im working on that. but once again im set back.
its just not fair.
why cant just once a guy mean it when he looks into my eyes or says something cute to me.
my friends tell me theres nothing wrong with me and i think im slightly attractive except that im fat but whatever. they tell me to be more confident but, it doesnt work guys; sorry.
thats why i do alot of drugs (you have no idea)
thats why i make funny and ugly faces
thats why i make lots of jokes and try not to be sad in front of people
im so complpicated and empty.
at least i have my art now....